Mid-Year’s Resolution

Is it ironic that this was the year I chose to use a daily planner as my New Year’s self-improvement resolution?!

That was useful until about mid-March, when Covid-19 cleared my social calendar completely.

Photo by Jazmin Quaynor on Unsplash

So I’ve made a new resolution.

Following the death of George Floyd and the ensuing uproar across our nation I realized a few things. First, that I was not living in a “post-racial” America as I had hoped I was (okay, I may have had inklings of this before, but I had to own it for real now). Second, that I knew next to nothing about the contemporary experience of Black people in America (nor that much about their post-Civil War history, if I’m honest).

As I grappled with those truths in the weeks of late March and early April, I was nearly ready to completely silence this blog (and my white woman voice). I obviously had a lot to learn and not much to say.

I asked myself the question, “How can I follow the incarnational example of Jesus in this situation?” Practically speaking, it did not seem I could literally uproot my family and move to a Black neighborhood to understand better what it means to be Black in America. Although the thought did cross my mind.

I had to find another way to get into that experience.

So this is the resolution I made: for a year (at least), I will immerse myself in the voices of black and indigenous people of color (BIPOC). Through books, music, movies . . . whatever I can get my hands on. The more different from me someone is, the more I want to understand their story and experience.

I cleared my CD rack of non-BIPOC artists (except those my children frequently listen to–this is my resolution, not theirs). I put books on hold, many more than I will be able to read through before they are due (I’m currently reading “We Were Eight Years in Power: An American Tragedy” by Ta-Nehisi Coates and “Custer Died for Your Sins: An Indian Manifesto” by Native American author Vine Deloria, Jr.). My husband and I watched “13th” directed by Ava DuVernay.

Some of this is heavy stuff, so I’m breaking it up with some novels here and there. And listening to a lot of Ben Harper. =)

I don’t know what will come of all of this, though I am hopeful that this journey will produce good fruit of compassion and humility, and even lead to positive, creative action to help create a more just society for the next generation to live in. I hope to share some of the things I’m learning on this blog.

Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash

with love, Anita


Maybe this is the year for CHANGE! Have you had occasion to change a resolution or make a new one? I’d love to hear about it!

One thought on “Mid-Year’s Resolution

  1. Thanks for this beautiful post. Challenging and encouraging. I’ve been reading more diversely, too. I hope you will continue to share books and reflections on what is helpful and meaningful for you

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